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Well, since I transferred to another department, I have been meditating on my decision of whether it is right to do so. The doubts soon affected my enthusiasm for learning. My grades and ranking both declined, because I simply cannot find the meaning of retaining them at a high level.I noticed that the classmates here are rather extrovert and like to show off and party loudly on average; since I have no apparent talent to showcase or an ambition to get in the inner ring of the department, I choose to be an outsider, both voluntarily and forcedly. I became so cynical about the department and the people here, since I do not appreciate the utilitarian mindset and shallow interpersonal interaction at all. I have denied and ignored the possibilities of learning anything here for a long time.
However, I now realize that I might have wrong preconceptions and stereotypes about the department and the people here, or, even if I was right, it is useless to be so resentful; after all, it is my decision to be here. It dawned on me that I can still be who I want to be, follow my own path and appreciate the strengths of all my stunning classmates.
Just like Coco Chanel once said that she had no time to waste on hating others. It is time to think what is there and grab something useful for myself. It is time to get rid of bad habits and just learn and study. Why not just be who I am? Though it might need lots of courage if you are not the type in the dominant group, but you still have to get in that spot to show everyone of your talents.
What has been done is the PAST. Work it hard from now and let it all out.
There is chance everywhere!